Good morning world! I woke up breathing today! At my age that is a special blessing! Yesterday I woke up with an ongoing sharp pain in my right side for most of the day. I always pray before I get out of bed and thank God for the day. I usually tell Him how much I love Him and how grateful I am to Him for life itself.
I hobbled to the bathroom to assess the damage a hard night’s sleep had done to my face and see if I could maintenance anything. Aging has a way of surprising one in many ways. What I find is that I must continually adjust my expectations and work with what nature has left me. I know how blessed I am because I see others my age in worse shape. Since I was about 30 yrs. old I have tried to exercise and take vitamins. My diet is better now than it was then. Even with all that I must pray and rely upon the Lord to keep and sustain me.
After I ate breakfast and got oriented I decided to try a slow jog on my rebounder for 30 minutes to see if that would loosen up my right hip and relieve the pain. I have to admit that my heart wasn’t into it but it true that God helps those who help themselves, right? It did not seem to help the pain but I felt better about having done something to improve myself.
I am a former over achiever who used to think the day was wasted if I did not accomplish something. While coping with the daily care of my disabled son I finally had to lower my expectations of that. Constant care-giving takes a toll on one’s body and mind. It is hard not to feel unfulfilled in ones own needs and goals.
My secret to surviving is to communicate with the Lord through the day, pray and listen for that still small voice to answer back in my spirit. I love the Holy Spirit. He is not a yes man, He tells me like it is! He breaks it down to me in terms that I can understand and relate to. He is truly a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
(TLB) Proverbs 18:24- There are “friends” who pretend to be friends, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. Brothers know us with all our faults and failures and love us anyway because we are part of their family. When I accepted Christ as my Savior I became part of His family with the rights and privileges of my brother Jesus. I don’t seem to focus on that as I am bumbling around my house. I guess the enemy (Satan) wants to keep me focused on the trials at hand so I will not walk in the victory Jesus provided for me.
I cannot wait until the day when I see His blessed face. I want a hug from Him if I have to stand in line for days to get it! I know there will probably be a long line of believers in Heaven waiting for the same thing. Hope you know Jesus as Savior because He is our only hope in a lost and dying world. Just remember. He knows your name, He knows your story, and He knows your heart!
I am so grateful for whoever has been praying for me since my last post! I have been able to push through and make myself walk the parkway near my house for several mornings. I do not find enthusiasm in it the way I used to but at least I get out of the house and force my body to move.
I know it was your prayers that helped break the stronghold that was over me. It is up to me to see that it does not come back. Being a Christian is not for wimps! Nobody is strong all the time and that is why He made us part of His body, so we could stand in the gap for each other in the hard times.
I still need prayer for my brother who had to have a trach tube and a g tube inserted yesterday. He had been on a ventilator for two weeks and could not tolerate it anymore due to complications. Lots of prayers are still going up for him. I feel helpless to do more for him at this point, but God promised in His Word that in my weakness He would be made strong. Hebrews 4:15 says that we do not have a high priest who cannot be touched with a feeling of our infirmities, but one who in every respect, has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.
Anyway, dear Prayer Warrior (or Warriors) you will never know until you get to Heaven how much you have blessed me! God bless you also!
I decided to take the time to post today, the first time in awhile. My life continues to evolve in a more hectic fashion everyday. Is it because I am older and do not adjust to change as well or because the world is more erratic than it once was? I am a practicing Christian and talk to the Lord from the time I wake up until I go to sleep. He is my best friend.
I used to think I was on top of things and could easily figure out solutions to problems that came up. Now I feel like a child relying on my Father (Jehovah God), Big Brother (Jesus), and Dearest Friend(Holy Spirit) to carry me through. I do not like feeling needy and mentally and physically weak but the Holy Trinity comforts me. Perhaps in my younger years I was too full of myself and my own ability to see how much I needed them even then.
Old age is an eye-opener. I will be 75 years old this year and did not feel close to that age until about 2 years ago. I have been a health nut with diet, exercise, and vitamins as a regular part of my routine. About a year ago I was no longer able to have the time to exercise on a regular basis due to the ongoing care of my adult disabled son who is total care. Having gone from being a runner, weight lifter, hiker and rappelling down cliffs, it seemed that walking 3 miles at the mall or on the parkway was pretty tame stuff. But now I can’t even get out to do that so I am feeling deprived and unfulfilled as if I am declining physically and mentally daily. I know that the battlefield is in the mind and I try to talk to Lord and myself, but despair tries to overtake me. I feel like a failure because I am not accomplishing any goals.
Recently my brother who will be 73 this year came down with the most severe case of Guilliain Barre’ disease that the doctors had ever seen. He is still on a ventilator and taking treatment but seems to be improving. A lot of prayers have gone up for him. He is all that is left from my birth family. My sister who was 8 years younger than me died two years ago and my mother and father have both been in Heaven for awhile. Life seems tentative and fragile right now.
It would behoove me to gird up the loins of my understanding and begin to practice walking in the victory that Jesus died and rose to give me. It is as if I am standing outside myself unable to effect the change I need. I know all the right scriptures, confessions, prayers, and renunciations but have not seen a change yet. I feel like I have truly waited upon the Lord in this process. My only other choice is as Ephesians 6:13 says: Therefore put on the whole armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
I was married to a military man once and used to marvel when I saw his company standing together at attention on the drill field. They were all in one accord, in one position, with one purpose at the time. They had been trained on how to respond when called on to fulfill their duty. I guess that is why God has given us His instruction book, the Bible, to help train us for warfare with the enemy. John 10:10 says: The thief (Satan) comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but I (Jesus) have come that they might have life and that they might have it more abundantly.
I need to get off of my holy pity party and utilize the weapons of my warfare: 2nd Corinthians 10:4- The weapons of our warfare are not carnal (of the flesh), but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds, casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself over the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ. Warfare requires effort on my part, and I feel compromised and unmotivated even though I know it would benefit me. I don’t know where Wanda went! She used to be someone I admired for her spunk and courage. I feel like she just faded away on me!
So now that I have put into print the inner thoughts of my mind, the task at hand is to begin to take baby steps in the Lord to reach freedom from the pit I have been in. That will involve deliberate actions on my part. Jesus has already done the work in the spirit realm for me. It is up to me to appropriate His promises and begin the process of gaining victory over the enemy of my soul. I would appreciate your prayers for me as I begin this process. Romans 8:31 says if God be for us, who can stand against us? I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Pray for me as I rise from my pity pot!
Celebrating with believers all over the world our risen Savior Jesus Christ!! Because of Him we can face tomorrow no matter what it brings.
This post is based on the scriptures Luke 19:12-27…When we speak of occupying it does not mean merely taking up space. Anyone can do that, both the godly and the ungodly. After various earthly wars have been fought and won, occupation troops were sent in to keep the peace and maintain the victory that men had died to obtain. We are soldiers of the cross and our job is to promote and maintain the victory that Jesus shed His precious blood for at Calvary . To occupy in the biblical sense means to take or hold our position in Christ and fulfill or perform the functions of our office in Him.
While the body of Jesus lay in the tomb His Spirit descended into Sheol ( a holding place for both the righteous and the unrighteous dead at that time), took the keys to death, Hell and the grave away from Satan, and took captivity captive. He also gave gifts to mankind….Each one of us has at least one gift to use for the Kingdom…some have more than one. How we use them is up to us. I am convinced that some people have become famous in the world by subverting the gifts that God gave them to use for Him. They have fame and fortune but these things are worthless in the light of eternity unless they are turned toward furthering the cause of Christ. On their deathbed the only thing that will matter is what did they do with Jesus?
I cannot write about this without reflecting on whether I myself am using my gifts for Jesus. I once had a beautiful singing voice but in the past few years it has become hoarse and raspy…I have had an ongoing problem with my tongue and mouth for the last seven months. Doctors have not been able to diagnose the cause of extreme mouth dryness, jaws, tongue and lips swelling and being sore. I have had intermittent oral dystonia and tardive dyskinesia. I believe that by the stripes that Jesus took on His back I am healed. I continue to believe for total healing and restoration and many people are praying for me. I grew up in a musical family that played instruments by ear and sang together. Music is an expression of what is going on in one’s soul. When we are struck by various emotions after listening to certain kinds of music we get a picture of whether light or darkness is occupying the performer’s soul.
I have had a lot of heartache in my life as have many of you. It leaves us feeling empty, hopeless and unable to sing for a season. I have been involved in the daily care of my adult disabled son for some 15 years this time and my inner songs dried up…I must muster my courage in Christ and begin to praise even if my voice does break and sound raspy. After all it matters more to Him to know that the worship in my heart is genuine than if each note I sing is true. I once attended a small country church where a lady got up to sing and she sounded terrible….I thought she was just joking around until I saw she was singing the best she could. What I discovered was that she had a real anointing on her life and the Holy Spirit moved upon people when she was singing. Isaiah 10:27 says “In that day his burden will be lifted from your shoulders, his yoke from your neck, and the yoke will be destroyed because of the anointing.” Even if our gift is small God can do big things with it if He anoints its use to His kingdom.
Many of us are constrained to a monotonous, mundane life which may seem fruitless by men’s standards. But God looks upon the heart and judges each of us separately and fairly. There are superstars in God’s kingdom who will never be recognized or known by us. But one sweet day they will see the face of Jesus and He will say, “Well done my good and faithful servant. You were faithful over a few things, I will put you in charge of many things; enter into the joy of your Lord.”
OCCUPY UNTIL THE LORD COMES!!
It has been awhile since I posted on this blog…I have had an ongoing physical issue for the past 3 months…Doctors have not found the source of the repetitive unpleasant symptoms that plague me most of the day every day. I am a retired nurse so I have come to know that sometimes bad things happen to good people who are only trying to live their lives. I pray daily and have been prayed for and am believing for total healing and restoration.
Matthew 5:45 says that God causes the sun to shine on the evil and the good and sends rain on the righteous (those who are saved) and the unrighteous (those who are not)…We know that Adam and Eve gave away our rights to a perfect world and that satan is the current ruler of it (John 12:31). John 10:10 says that the thief (satan) comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but that Jesus came that we might have an abundant life. Romans:35-37 says that nothing can seperate us from the love of Christ and that through Him we are more than conquerers!
I don’t always feel like a conquerer when I am experiencing uncomfortable and repetitive symptoms that Jesus took stripes on His back for, hung on the cross for, laid in the tomb 3 days, and rose again for…so that by His stripes I could be healed….But if I lose faith and stop believing for healing and restoration I have no hope…I must press in and endure until the manifestation of my healing happens….Frankly I don’t like it and pray for God to shorten the time I am being tested with this….
Meanwhile I go about my daily life and complete the daily tasks that are necessary for with being a wife, mother, and great-grandmother….I give all glory to Jesus that I can do it because many days I just want to lay down and quit….Every once in awhile I feel fear creep over me and I have to remind myself and the devil of 2nd Timothy 1:7- God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power,and love, and a sound mind. 1st John 4:18 says that God’s perfect love for us casts out all fear because fear has torment…those who fear are not convinced that God really loves and cares for them…
After years of trying to be an over achiever I have finally come to know that I do not have to rely on my own merit or lack of it to decide whether I am worthy enough to receive the promises of God….I like what the Message Bible says in 2nd Corinthians 1:20..Whatever God has promised gets stamped with the Yes of Jesus. In Him, this is what we preach and pray, the great Amen, God’s Yes and our Yes together, gloriously evident. God affirms us, making us a sure thing in Christ, putting His yes within us. By His Spirit He has stamped us with His eternal pledge-a sure beginning of what He is destined to complete.
So TAKE THAT you foul, tormenting spirit of infirmity! Psalm 136 says to give thanks to the Lord for He is good and His love endures forever….Every day can be a day of Thanksgiving if I remember that Jesus sustains and keeps me and is my soon coming King….Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning!!
Sorry I have been away so long…..I have had a series of health issues and ongoing family issues that needed my attention….During those times Jesus was near and reassured me by His Holy Spirit, the Word, and the prayers of the saints. God has reminded me that in these last days I will need to know how to dwell in the secret place of the Most High and abide under the shadow of the Almighty…(91st Psalm). The way to get there is by prayer and practicing the presence of God on a personal basis in daily supplication and prayer….. We see 2nd Timothy 3 coming true each day as we look around us and watch the news….If we don’t learn to live in the secret place there will be no real assurance of peace and safety….Should the Lord tarry before the Rapture we will each need to cling all the more tightly to our faith in the finished work of our Savior and the promises He left us in His love letter to us…the Bible…I thank God for all of you who have continued your blogs…They encouraged me even when I didn’t have time to respond….Love you all, Wanda
In reviewing the video I posted yesterday I was impressed of how unsophisticated and down home my speech and mannerisms are. Perhaps I could draw more people into God’s Kingdom if I were more dynamic and spellbinding in my presentation of the Gospel. All I know is that I desire to glorify Jesus because of what He is to me and what He has done for me. In reading the 3rd chapter of John I recognized what I must do. In John 3:30 John the Baptist said it best…”I must decrease and He must increase”. I must be obedient and willing to share whatever small gift that God has given me, forget my ego and concentrate on furthering the cause of Christ in these last days before His return to gather up His Bride. We never know who we might touch at a time when they are willing to listen. Paul said in 1st Corinthians 3 that some plant, some water but God reaps the increase. The NIV says “So neither the one who plants or the one who waters is anything, but only God who makes things grow”. It is not about me anyway, but about Jesus Christ the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. PRAISE HIS NAME!! 🙂